365 Days in a year
Everyday for a whole year I will post one thing about ANYTHING. These things may include: Likes, Dislikes, Wants, Music, Sexual life, Family, Friends, School, Pictures of me, And maybe even a random fact/rant about my day. If any of you have a suggestion about what I should post just message me and i’ll make sure I do it. Also, if you do message me with an idea I will promote you on this page and on my blog <3
DAY 1 - 10/16/11 - I can’t stop listening to “Good To You” by Marianas Trench. The lyrics go very well with my life right now.
DAY 2 - After today, I have made out with every single one of my BESTFRIENDS. Girls, and guys. And what makes this unique is that they were all for the experience and not for anything sexual.
DAY 3 - I love taking naps, not only because i’m sleeping, but also because that’s when I have the weirdest dreams any of you could ever imagine.
DAY 4 - I hate when there’s all this cold and rainy weather…and I have no one to cuddle with. But on the upside I LOVE thunderstorms <3
DAY 5 - I got a girls number today…and she’s gorgeous! I already know I like her.
DAY 6 - I get jealous sooo easily. and this is about everything…not just boyfriend/girlfriend stuff. like other peoples love situations, money, hotness, etc.
DAY 7 - I get my cell phone taken away from me a lot. and my laptop. and my ipod. all because my mom is a crazy bitch.
DAY 8 - Not only is my mom messed up, but also my dad. hes a crack head. or was. ever since I was 4…now i’m 16. But as of this moment he has been clean for a year and a half.
DAY 9 - remember that girl I was talking to? yeah well lets just say that’s done and over with. (Oh yeah! only 9 more months until my birthday!)
DAY 10 - 10/25/11 - I have 3 HUGE crushes on these boys at school…and today I saw them all in their boxers (;
DAY 11 - I live in a nice apartment, but I still want to live in a house.
DAY 12 - My favorite type of candy bar is a Take 5.
DAY 13 - I’m always single. But guess what? I hate being single.
DAY 14 - I haven’t masturbated since DAY 6. fuck.
DAY 15 - I haven’t done any homework this weekend, because i’m doing great in all of my classes, i’m sick, and I just needed a god damn break.
DAY 16 - Something I wish I could post on facebook: “I’m bisexual!”
DAY 17 - I hate autoplay on blogs..even if it’s good music. only because I usually have my own music playing or i’m watching porn, and it just gets in the way.
DAY 18 - I always try to do the right thing, be my own person, try to help others, and honestly just be a good person. There are people in this world who don’t have any friends or family at all. And it sickens me because those are the people who should have the most friends in their lives. Just because someone may not look like your “type” of friend, that doesn’t mean anything. they could be the nicest person in the world. remember, they’re human just like everyone else. So reach out a hand, and become someones friend.
DAY 19 - Today I played my violin in school for about 3 hours straight. and it was honestly refreshing. just sitting there doing something I know i’m good at and have people actually come up to me and tell me how good I am made me feel really good.
DAY 20 - 11/04/11 - I’ve been craving love. a lot.
DAY 21 - I love doing hard work because I feel great when I accomplish something on my own. But I hate getting dirty.
DAY 22 - I found a really sexy gay guy. and he likes me <3
DAY 23 - My best friend (saraj3an.tumblr.com) Sara, is one of my favorite people in this whole worldddd. And she’s one of the most talented guitar players/singers that I know.
DAY 24 - there’s this boy Josh. He’s gay. And he is soooo hot<3 omg and guess what!? he likes me! and we’re hanging out saturday. I love when things start to fall into place
DAY 25 - Well, tomorrow is the last day of the first marking period at school, and i’m very content with all of my grades for once.
DAY 26 - I love feeling loved. I love having someone to text when ever I want, and I love having someone who texts me. And actually enjoys it.
day 27 - Road trips are fucking fun.
DAY 28 - there’s this girl Libby who I used to talk to. yeah well fuck her. i’m sooo much better than that bitch. UGH
DAY 29 - I love being home alone! two things that always happen when this happens: I blast music. I get naked as fuckkk.
DAY 30 - 11/14/2011 - I want Josh to ask me out <3
DAY 31 - Weed. Alcohol. Sex. A FUCKING MEN
DAY 32 - I think I lost my ipod…this makes today horrible. fucccck
DAY 33 - I cannot fucking wait for thanksgiving. even though I don’t have a big family it will still be a nice day. I like being around a lot of people.
DAY 34 - I’ve moved a lot in my life. I’ve switched school quite a bit also. and I only have like 1 real guy bestfriend..I want more.
DAY 35 - So I have this “straight friend” and I slept over his house…and he was sending me mixed signals…but when ever I bring up anything about being bi he always shuts me down and tells me to shut up..I honestly think he’s straight and he’s just being nice to me. ugh. I want him:(
DAY 36 - I hate cigarettes.
DAY 37 - When straight guys at school slap my ass or calls me “buddy” OMG *meltingggggg*
DAY 38 - Finally off for thanksgiving break! ahhh this week is gonna be good.
DAY 39 - I want to work for the Department of Defense one day, and hopefully be a lead scientist in bio defense for our country.
DAY 40 - 11/24/2011 - HAPPY THANKSGIVING. I believe this holiday is about being with as many people as you can, and just being happy. And that is just one more reason why I don’t like my family, they’re scattered around the U.S, they all hate each other, no one ever gets along. And we’re a small family to begin with. When I get older my goal is to bring my mom and dads family together for thanksgiving.
DAY 41 - I lost my virginity to someone that I shouldn’t have.
DAY 42 - Josh… yeah he’s a dick. fuck guys. I shoulda known from the beginning. he’s too young. he’s too wild. he’s a slut. not my type.
DAY 43 - I always start working out..and then I eventually stop. because I think I don’t need to do it. well this time, i’m not stopping. I NEED to do it.
DAY 44 - I wonder if anyone ever checks up on this…
DAY 45 - i’m starting to talk to a lot of my followers, and its a great feeling. I come home every day from a shitty day at school and I have a couple messages to respond to, and it feels nice. I just want to let you all know that i’m here for you and would love to help you with ANY problems that you may have.
DAY 46 - I hate cleaning the cat litter.
DAY 47 - All of our Christmas decorations are up and i’m really happy<3
DAY 48 - Harry Potter has gotta be one of my favorite movie series ever. I wish I had time to read the books.
DAY 49 - criminal minds, law and order SVU, NCIS, and bones are all my favorite shows! anddd a new show that i’m starting to get into is gold rush.
DAY 50 - 12/04/2011 - Xtube and Rockettube are my two favorite porn websites (;
DAY 51 - The Olive Garden is my new favorite restaurant.
DAY 52 - some people are just disgusting. not like the way they look. but the way they act.
DAY 53 - A couple of minutes ago I called my great grandma who lives in Florida. She’s the only great grandparent i’ve ever had in my life, all the others either died before I was born, or before I could get to know them . For 16 years i’ve seen her a couple times a year when she comes back home over the summer. She is honestly one of the smartest, most caring, and most beautiful people I have ever met in my whole life. And now she’s in the hospital, dying. she doesn’t remember who I am, and I can’t do anything about it. I told her I loved her and she said “i’m sorry I don’t remember you, I know i’m sick. I’m sure you’re an amazing person, I love you too.” All I want to do is see her one last time. I have no idea what to do right now…i’ve never gone through a family member dying before. I can’t stop crying. Please pray for her <3
DAY 54 - sometimes I get really lazy…and don’t update this..until like 8 days later…like today :p hahah
DAY 55 -If I was taller, I would be so much better looking.
DAY 56 - I love hot tubs.
DAY 57 - I would love to go to england, or london, or anywhere in the UK really. the boys are so much hotter <3
DAY 58 - If you want to win my heart, give me fudge. no nuts tho(;
DAY 59 - I just found out i’ll be leaving to go visit my great grandmother from this saturday until the 28th. I really wanna see my grandma. i’ll be there for Christmas though…I don’t think it’s gonna be as fun as it should be.
Day 60 -12/14/2011 - GOAL for Florida trip: Get as tan as possible.
Day 61 - So at first no one knew, then my best friends knew, then old friends that I used to know knew. then I told all of Facebook, but I blocked it from all the guys at school. And then, I forgot to block some people, and everyone in the world knows. but honestly, it feels soooo good, and everyone is being so cool.
DAY 62 - I like when I have really really short hair.
DAY 63 - I have a crush on my best friend at school.
DAY 64 - I hate when I really like a song, and then some fuck tard starts screaming words that I don’t even understand. BECAUSE HE’S SCREAMING. fuck that.
DAY 65 - ONLY 300 more days of this (;
DAY 66 - i’m still learning how to use Tumblr. And there are things i wish I knew how to do…like make it so people can reblog/like the picture in my “Me” page.
DAY 67 - Florida is nice. love this weather.
DAY 68 - Of course the college I wanted to visit while i’m here closes the day I call to find out if they have any tours going on. (Gulf Coast University of Florida)
Day 69 - I have never given and received oral sex at the same time. (get it…cuz it’s day 69… :p )
DAY 70 - 12/24/2011 - it’s Christmas Eve, and this is nothing like the way I expected it to be.
DAY 71 - Christmas. I got like no presents. and on top of that, most importantly, we thought my great grandma was going to die. today was horrible. (But she didn’t! Thank God.)
DAY 72 - I do a lot of catching up on this…so I hope all the numbers are right…I guess we’ll find out eventually! lol
DAY 73 - Last full day in Florida. I’m not ready for the cold. And I got a baby tan (; maybe i’ll take a picture eventually and put it up.
DAY 74 - LONG ASS DAY. I woke up at 4:30 AM. then I got on a plane for 2 hours. And then I got the most fantastic opportunity to be in Atlanta, Georgia. But of course it is one of the busiest fucking airports in the world. and I had to wait there today for 3 hours. But I saw a lot of hot people…and once I got on my second plane the kid sitting next to me was SO hot. and get got a boner on the plane. I know this cuz i’m a creep and I was checking him out the whole time. omg.
DAY 75 - I do not consider myself selfish, at all. I don’t consider myself self-centered, arrogant, or confused with my life. But this video, and all the other ones on youtube about Ben have made me feel like i’m honestly missing out on a big part of life. I am catholic yes, I believe in God yes, But I do not love God the way I should. i’ve always wanted to make Him number one, the way the bible tells us to. But nothing ever showed me that I should, or had to. So I didn’t. But damn, did this video make me cry. It made me feel selfish and undeserving. I may sound like i’m going a little too far but I feel like this is exactly the way I need to feel. I don’t know Ben at all, and I feel like he’s going to change my life a lot. He already has.
“My flesh and my heart my fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever” Pslam 73:26
R.I.P Ben Breedlove
video - http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=35O3E3T3GKQ
